honestly, it is my pleasure. seeing people follow hard after God is my greatest passion. It definitely gets harder to pursue God when we gain more independence and it goes from turning into our own convictions instead of just following what our parents tell us. But I can guarantee that if you pursue the Lord, even when it’s tough and when everything seems to be pulling you in other directions, it will be the greatest choice of your life.
And it totally makes sense about feeling inadequate…but that’s what I love about the Lord, he doesn’t compare us to everyone around us. He pursues you for you and thats it…and that’s what He wants from you, a singular focused pursuit of him.
You are awesome and I am glad you are feeling like it’s time to find direction again. I guarantee that this kind of a lifestyle is the only one that can give you ultimate fulfillment and true happiness. And that’s not just a nice sounding idea…that comes from persona experience!!
You don’t have to feel awkward about that at all. I think to a lot of people the thought of coming back to a relationship with Jesus Christ after “losing it” seems incredibly hard, if not impossible. But the beauty of a walk with Christ is that in Psalm 103.12 it says, “As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.” This means that he keeps no record of our decisions we make when we are apart from Him.
I think one of the best pictures of someone coming “back” into their faith is seen with King David in the Bible. I don’t know how familiar you are with this story, but basically back in Biblical times, when David was King, he was supposed to be leading his troops out into war, but instead decided to stay home. While he was home and his troops were away fighting, he ended up seducing a married woman into sleeping with him and she became pregnant. The woman’s husband was out fighting and David had him killed in order to have this woman be his. After making this series of decisions, David came to the realization that he was wrong and needed to do something to get back in right relationship with God. He had walked away from everything he believed was right and good and he knew he needed to get things in right order. Psalm 51 is his plea with God of repentance and forgiveness and his desire to have righteousness restored in his life. The reason I loved this passage is because it lays out such a clear picture of the what true repentance for sin is and it shows the redemptive nature of Jesus, who holds nothing against us, but looks for a heart of true repentance. As David cried out and repented, it opened the door for the Lord to come in and wash Him clean and forgive him. It began with repentance, and then from there David had to live a lifestyle of obedience to Jesus. It can’t just be repentance and then going back to old ways and the same old actions. The literal meaning of saying you are “sorry” is to turn from where you are and go the other way. That’s what Jesus looks for. He created you with a purpose and a destiny and it is HIs greatest desire to see you love Him with all of your heart and to walk in obedience according to His plan for you.
The only way you learn how to love Him and what His plan for you is comes through reading the Bible and doing what it says, having a lifestyle of prayer and surrounding yourself with people who are doing the same thing. If you have no one else around you pursuing the Lord, then you pursue Him on your own and eliminate whatever distractions try and pull you away from Him.
This all comes from the assumption that you have already asked Jesus into your heart to be your Lord and Savior. That He died on the cross for you, taking on your sins and iniquity and then on the third day, He rose again. It is so vital you understand that nothing can separate you from His love and if He had to die all over again, just for you, then He would.
He longs for you to come back to a right relationship with Him more than you know. Read Luke 15.11-32. It is the story of the prodigal son. This will give you a slight comparison as to what it is like to God when someone who has “lost their faith” makes the choice to come back to Him. He loves you more than you know and love keeps no record of wrongs. It’s simple: it’s recognizing the wrong choices you have made, crying out in repentance for them and then turning the other way and running hard after Jesus. You do not have to earn is love or earn His forgiveness, that’s a done deal. You have that…you just have to receive it!
Seriously, ask me any questions you might have. Don’t feel awkward about anything. I’d love to help in whatever way I can. I’ll be praying for you.
josiah michael. you are the best of them all. haha. thanks man. i appreciate that a lot.
yea, sure. what’s up?
hey, thanks so much. i really like yours too. always nice to be in the company of another artist.
i love days like today…just me, my bible and my sketchbook. i love it when he shows me things that i can put into picture.
hey!! thanks so much! i am glad you like it! reblog away! ;)
thanks mr! i felt like it needed a facelift! haha. miss you too! two weeks and i’m there! unless you want to come and visit me while were staying downtown!! that’d be fun!
i don’t want my christian walk to be characterized by ease and comfort. not that comfort is bad, but when i think about it, the times where i am most uncomfortable and most inconvenienced in my walk with the lord are the times where i see most growth. today was another day of that…i was reading in James 4.4 today and it said,
You adulterous people, don’t you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.
reading this struck me big time. friendship with the world places me as an enemy towards the lord. do i realize, to its actual depth, what that truly means? it’s either the lord or it’s the world. there is no both/and, no in between or common ground. i have to pick one and the choices i make determine which one my allegiance lies with. every choice to speak negatively, sides with the world. every choice to chose fear, sides with the world. every choice to entertain myself with things outside of His covering sides with the world.
no matter how much i “want” to be fully surrendered, my emotions and feelings mean nothing because it is my actions that will decide my allegiance. i want everything i surround myself with, every word i speak, every place i set my foot to declare my allegiance to the Lord with unwavering purpose and resolve. this is a lifestyle of true surrender.